Friday, December 19, 2008

She's gone

Mom died tonight.

Dad and I were there with her. Hugging her, crying, telling her we loved her. She went so quickly after the respirator came out. Minutes until she was gone. We were expecting a few hours. The doctor said had we left the respirator in, she likely would have died during the night. Her body was ready to go.

I have no words for the intensity of that experience. To watch someone die. To watch my mommy die. Nothing could have prepared me for the actual death, even though I was prepared for knowing she would die.

I don't wish I wasn't there. I wanted her to know I was there. To be with her. But I'm overwhelmed with emotion for what that feels like to see life leave the body.

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