Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Carpe Diem?

I am beyond ready for bed, so I'm not at all sure why I'm blogging.  But my attitude is needing some re-focusing, and I tend to re-find myself in writing.

Today, we were gone from home from 8AM to 8PM.  Too long.  I have a love/hate relationship with my schedule.  I love (love, love, love) every single thing on it.  But there's too much on it.  And I'm not quite sure what to do about it.

It was unusually full today, that's true.  But so is tomorrow.  And the next day, for that matter.

Spending the day at co-op is one of the highlights of my week.  I chat with brilliant, wonderful, interesting moms.  Watching our children spend their lunch hour having a light saber battle in the lawn.  It was so beautiful to see so many kids (and so many ages) interacting, playing, screaming with joy...and light sabering.  Andrew and his little friends gathered around the bag of chips and the Mickey Mouse game...their tiny little heads chatting and scheming together.  Jack bounding out of French class, chemistry, Three Musketeers, Dinosaurs...eyes bright and excited about his day.  He loves it so much.

But I am tired, too.  Today, I wanted to curl up on the couch with a book or just playing leisurely board games with the kids.  Instead, I had to pack an entire day of food and supplies and sit in traffic for 45 minutes of back-up on the highway...drop off Simone...unload everyone and then spend my day there.

Worth it?  Yes. Complicated?  Yes.

Our drive home lasted 5.5 hours...and included a Lost Boys' donation pick-up (where Suzanne kindly gave my children bananas and let Simone use the toilet), post office, picking up Jack's diagnostic lab, Starbucks, grocery store, Kung Fu, Jay's calculus books, and then dropping off 53 Operation Christmas Child shoeboxes for MOPS. 

Too much!

Home to laundry, dishes, and packing up to do it all again tomorrow.  Teaching instead of co-op, but the same idea. 

Balance.  I need to find it.  I know it's in there.  I just need to scale back.  Or wait until January.  Things will calm down then.  Or at least, I keep telling myself...